Category Archives: Thoughts

I’m ALIVE!

No, I didn’t fall of the edge of the Earth. No, T didn’t start walking. I just… went back to work. It’s been a struggle to find time to do the dishes, let alone write a blog post!

I have to say, I don’t know how working moms who don’t L-O-V-E their jobs can do it. I’m having a hard enough time leaving every day, and I adore my job. I can’t imagine leaving every day to go to a job I hate. It’s such a struggle to balance being great at my job and being a great mom. I’m trying to sift through all that and decide what it should look like, and it’s honestly a lot harder than I ever thought it would be.

In the twenty minutes or so that it takes me to get to work everyday, I think to myself, “I’m gonna quit my job today. I have no business leaving my son every morning. I hate it. I’m done.”

Then I walk into my classroom and have the opportunity to teach those fifteen smiling beautiful faces. I can literally see the light bulbs go off when they finally understand a concept we’ve been working on. Like telling time… it’s a long road to being able to read a clock, let me tell you. This past week I had several students who had major break-throughs in the time-telling department. Seeing those successes and knowing I had a part in it is amazing. It’s why I love my job.

Then lunchtime comes, and I have to get the giant, noisy, cold, plastic pump out. In the ten to fifteen minutes that I’m pumping, I usually send a text or two to check on T and Jessi or John will send me a picture of him smiling happily or rolling over or sitting up, and I’m ready to quit my job again. How can I be missing all of this? Evenings and weekends are not enough!

It’s a constant back and forth with myself. Even though I know I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing… I can’t help but struggle with it! I never thought I would second guess my decision to go back to work… but it’s true what they say: A baby changes everything!

Cake and a Half Marathon

Meet Jessi Laine… T’s Aunt, my Sister, and recently… nanny extraordinaire! Tomorrow is her birthday, but we celebrated with the family tonight. Everyone came over and I made fish. Catfish Amandine… I used John Besh’s recipe. It was delicious, if I do say so myself. We opened presents, and Mimi made a very yummy cake. T entertained us, as usual. A fun time was had by all!

I really love that picture… so cute!

During dinner, we decided that we’re all going to train for a half-marathon together. My mom decided to train for a 5k for her birthday this past June. She is on this awesome weight-loss journey and is reaching new fitness goals all the time. She did the 5k, and pretty much walks a 5k a few times a week now. She definitely needs a new challenge!

John & my parents all use Runkeeper on their iphones. They love it, and tonight John downloaded it for me. We loaded T into the BOB and took off. We ran 2.11 miles tonight! Granted, I ran it very slowly… I haven’t exercised at all since T was born. Now that he ‘s big enough and has such excellent head control, I’m not nervous to run with him. He conked out about a mile into our run. We’ve decided to do the half-marathon in November, then we want to do it again in April. We’ll run in the Crescent City Classic with T in tow. It’s harder work to run with the stroller, but we really like bringing him along! I’m excited to start training… I’m sure there will be plenty of updates in the coming weeks!